fed up

I shouldn't be made to feel this way.  I'm an extremely confident person and I refuse to allow you to chip away at me.  Keep your ideals of beauty, health, and fitness to yourself because I can honestly say I am happy with the way I am now.

No - I don't need to squat more.

No - I don't need to cut back on junk food.

No - I'm not going to eat myself to obesity.

If that's the kind of person you think I am, then you seriously don't know me at all.  The simple fact that you're trying to take away something that makes me happy and associate it negatively, is not okay and I won't stick around for it to continue.

Maybe for once, stop centralising purely on my appearance because at the end of the day, I won't even be around for you to comment on me if you keep at this.  Just think about what you're really saying to me and constantly pushing onto me.

I'm still young, I should be able to eat whatever and whenever I want.  There is time to eat healthier when I actually get older - or when I'm dead.  But for now, let me enjoy the food I love and don't make me feel guilty for it.

I really don't ask for much - I just want to eat in peace.

hero

Safety blanket.  It's what people use when they're feeling scared, uneasy, uncomfortable, and most importantly - vulnerable.  We each have something or someone to turn to in these situations.  It - or they - provide you with a sense of security and comfort.  I don't consider myself as someone who is easily afraid or vulnerable, at least not really.  But the recent rise of insecurities that has been cast upon me has forced me to deal with and utilise what I thought was my safety blanket.  I had always thought that in a glum moment and even fear, that regardless of the time or situation, my heightened emotions could be soothed by this apparatus.  Simply put, that is not the case.  As I have always thought and believed - and even tried to change - at the end of the day, the only person I can rely on and believe to help push through anything scary is myself.  My mind is strong enough to overcome any obstacle that my thoughts introduce and it is my own duty to eradicate these fears.  

Relying on anything or anyone else is embarrassingly futile.