IM

I don't know if this was the first time its happened or just the first time I've consciously realised, but seeing your name pop up in the right hand corner of my screen when you log in puts me in a state of trance. As soon as I see your hateful name, I get flooded with flashbacks with all the things we used to do together. The endless chats and playful fighting bring warmth inside me. Then the other things, which I would rather not note down here. I make you sound like the most horrible person ever - but you're not at all, I guess we just didn't fit right and we both reacted badly after everything. I hope this is the last time I blog about you, but lets be honest, you're going to pop right back into my mind in the near future anyway. Just depends what you choose to do in there.