you're not

It's coming to a point where it's just not enough.  I find myself constantly making excuses to myself for you and I'm so tired of waiting; waiting for change.   There will be a small window of change that occurs but then shortly, I'm brought back to reality.  I'm hopeful, but hope will only get us so far.  And I'm afraid of what may happen when I tire out.  My mind is exhausted from overthinking every single day.  I lie awake in bed, my mind jumping from one thought to another, and it all goes downhill from there.  I'm sick of it, I don't need anything else fuelling my negative thoughts.  I can't keep going on like this.